Category: patriarchy

This story contains references to sexual assault

For every man and woman I’ve been sexual with:

• First boyfriend, first kiss; I evaded a first fuck.
  You touched me in places I didn’t want touching:
  The first man to teach me that my body is not really mine.

  “An Inability to Orgasm”

• You were much older, and we were in the backseat of your car.
  I took my clothes off
  You were trying to rebound from a break-up. I was trying to prove something.
  “An Inability to Orgasm”
• We kissed for the first time on my 18^th
  Our lips touched, and I instantly recoiled
  We dated for four years. I never orgasmed.
  “An Inability to Orgasm”
• Your lips felt tender until your strength became aggressive,
  violent
  I trusted you and you sexually assaulted me.
  “An Inability to Orgasm”
• I felt comfort in your arms.
  I love you for accepting me, damaged goods and all
  I hate you for damaging me further, for throwing me to the curb like garbage.
  “An Inability to Orgasm”
• The sensuality of your body brought me to the closest I’ve ever been to ecstasy.
  Thank you
  for the almost orgasm.
  “An Inability to Orgasm”
• The wetness coming out of you made the lips of your vagina stick together.
  You wanted to see me again; I treated you the way men treat me
  I’m sorry for not calling back. 

• Feminist politics, patriarchal sex.
  You came; our sexual tango ended
  I’ve still never reached orgasm.

 

word, “An Inability to Orgasm,” submitted by an anonymous writer, 

was influenced by A Haiku for Every Girl I’ve Ever Slept With

colour, “Danish Croissant,” by Mi Ju